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Saturday, September 15th, 2007
4:53 pm
Today, you are absolutely radiating power! You can make major changes in your life -- if you want to. It's a wonderful time to mix things up a little bit and try a different way of doing your normal routine. If you open your mind to untraditional ideas and methods, this could be a very experimental time in your life. Sure, trying new ways of thinking and acting won't always create the most positive results, but it will at least be very illuminating -- and fun






. Cosmic Calendar Today:
September 15, 2007


Daily Cosmic Calendar


How much progress can you make on a weekend when the Sun in Virgo and the Moon in Scorpio are in a good rapport? By 4:42PM PDT tomorrow (Sunday), the solar and lunar orbs will connect via a supportive 60-degree link. There are tremendous opportunities for advancement in many different arenas of life. You can almost take your pick and the odds are good that you will flourish today. Seize the initiative and be a dynamo with the Moon energizing one of the more powerful signs of the zodiac. Research, detective work, investigations and ferreting out secrets are all in favor while the Moon travels through Scorpio waters. Learn more about your hidden realm of desires, subliminal feelings and childhood fears. The sensual and erotic components of your nature can suddenly be aroused under this lunar aegis. However, warning bells are beginning to ring for the following reasons: Vesta in Sagittarius squares Uranus in Pisces (10:29PM PDT); Mercury approaches an awkward, 150-degree link to Uranus (precise at 8:00AM PDT tomorrow); the Sun squares Mars on Monday September 17. The Vesta-Uranus clash is a signal to beef up safety and security measures around your residence. Be more careful with key investments. Scrutinize insurance policies and contracts with a fine-tooth comb. Communication channels may be more static-leaden overnight and into Sunday morning in concert with the Mercury-Uranus off-kilter link. While the Sun-Mars skirmish is waiting in the wings and not due until Monday afternoon, even that alignment can begin ushering in psychic thunderstorms where you least expect them. Count your blessings overnight and keep hope alive!


Monthly Overview RSS
September

This month, you focus on letting go of unnecessary things. Maybe what you need to let go of is the idea of buying a new flat screen TV that you don't need and probably can't afford. Or maybe you need to say good-bye to an unfulfilling relationship you cling to because it gives you a sense of security. Maybe it's an outdated and no longer useful image of yourself as somebody who can't relate to others on an intimate level. Is that what needs to go? Whatever it is, it's time, on the 1st and 2nd, to take a deep breath, relax your grip and let it drift away. This will free up all kinds of space and energy to focus on the things you really do need, such as emotional, spiritual, social and financial stability. On the 7th and 8th, your boss could be driving you crazy. Try not to let them get too far under your skin. The 15th and 16th are your days: What you want is what you get, and it feels good. By the 20th, you're ready to get down to business. Whether you're in roofing, rentals or radical performance art, whatever you undertake now will turn into a big success. On the 25th, pay attention to your dreams. On the 30th, double-check all your facts and figures before you proceed with any financial projects

that really tripped me out
Tuesday, August 28th, 2007
11:03 pm
10:19 pm



Temperance
What is traditionally known as the Temperance card is a reference to the Soul. Classically female, she is mixing up a blend of subtle energies for the evolution of the personality. One key to interpreting this card can be found in its title, a play on the process of tempering metals in a forge.

Metals must undergo extremes of temperature, folding and pounding, but the end product is infinitely superior to impure ore mined from the earth. In this image, the soul volunteers the ego for a cleansing and healing experience which may turn the personality inside-out, but which brings out the gold hidden within the heart

Current Mood: high
Tuesday, August 14th, 2007
3:13 pm
Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
12:32 am
Satisfaction
Current mood: optimistic


Reading my previous post

im so extatic to say that sense then i have had sex and it was hot

but damn here i go again you are so cute but more then that KIND

a taurus so how can i as scorpio resist you or want to

you say soon you will also be departing, returning to where we both started

just stay away from the SHIT my friend you are so much better then that and i have faith that our paths may cross again some day

just look at how it all even started and then it seems so obvious

i really like you as you may be able to tell but i dont mean to come off too strong

and damn you know how to work it

god i want you right now

it is nce to know you
Monday, July 9th, 2007
12:42 am
Bored
I am so Fing bored rightt now
i've done all i can do for right now

i was scoping the shit out on craigslist it is more like cheap entertainment then anything else ssome of the shit people post is so damn funny
but im not even looking to MEET ANYONE NEW
the guy that i would love to meet i ALREADY know thank you god
but this is somewhat of a long distance matter
we have no RELATIONSHIP at this point but we do converse often and have phone sex which is seriously the most erroctic thing happening in my life right now

and honestly i can deaL with that but i really wish i could be with this beautiful man who also has a taurus moon

and by the way the moon eentered taurus at 10 am yesterday so power to the taurus moon peeps

so yeah longing for physical embracment
this i haVe not experienced for a while both sides not having it right now and not being able to have it because literally i dont have it right now

does that make sense?
it does to me so that is reallY all that matters
but all i really want right Now the person who i cant get off my mind even more so then my ex

is danny

i think im intrigued bc we met briefly and since then its been something or other but we have still kept contact and so that is totally awsome

but i think physically i get frustrated or stuck because theRe is so much talk about intimate moments complete and utter fucking hotness i mean i get so fucking turned on by him but its all over the damn phone so all i can literally do is touch myself and feeling relief for like 5 minutes but then always come back to the feeling of wanting more even more so

just my whole sex life in geneeral

i meAn not that sex is everything to my existence but i am very strongly influenced scorpio and i feel that sex is a healthy intigration into my life that more timeS then not i want and would like to have WITH THE RIGHT PERSON

so sometimes there are points where im invlved witha few different people at once and that i dont really like because then i feel things start to get complicated and its too many people including myself to try to consider and juggle emotionally or even very much so non emotionally but from my end it is almost always emotional so that is draining

and then there are time where i wont have sex for what seems like forever to me but i guess could be considered normal by other non highly influenced scorpionic people

also with danny
right after i met him he told me he bet himself he wouldnt have sex for 6 months

ok interesting i asked him why?
he says dicipline
ok i can respect that

so maybe through that maybe that is what im trying to get a little of here

DICIPLINE

i hope that is fucking how its spelled
but maybe so

and I did read onetime in some astrology book that scorpio's can go from being very permisscuis {i knw that is not how its spelled} to born again virgins

ok well that is where i feel i am going right now
maybe im just being intense
i guess i long for clarity that haasnt quite shown his face yet

do you know what i mean?

so what i do want
i dont want to be with multiple people at once

i just want 1 beautiful man that i can have awsome and wonderful sexual relations with
if that means that something meaningful must come witha relationship then that is fine

but let me tell you i am worth it im beautiful and smart funny and have a kind and caring heart and soul and any man is lucky to have been allowed and able to have my body
this is my body damn it and looking back i cant believe somtimes the things i led myself into it doesnt make me any less of a person it just really makes me APPRICIATE MYSELF THAT MUCH MORE

GOD DAMN IT IT DOES
i just got these very strong feeling just now

but i know who i am and i love who i am and anyone who i have let iN i just hope you feel lucky because some i would NEVER FUCKING EVER AGAIN

and i never even have BEEN WITH HIM ,BUT I want him to want me and have me so bad

i must save myself i feel for who ever the next beautiful person maybe.
AND I DONT KNOW WHAT MAY COME BUT I GOTTA BE MORE AWARE OF WHAT IS REALLY BEING OFFERED AND WHAT I REALLY WANT

is that what my father was saying to me this whole damn time????

FUCKING YES OF COUSE HE WAS god damnit

damn seriously i've never really thought about it like this so in a way that is kinda cool
and then though i feel like the flesh shouldnt be that important anyways but it is so enjoyable god it is so enjoyable

i guess my biggest fear feeling like a slut
i am not a slut but i could easily see myslef going there but i think then that is a deeper seeded issue of love or acceptance from a male figure in my life

fuck that
but i do understand veugely where this comes from
ok you learn something new everyday and when it is about yourself then that may be even better in this case feel it is


i can b damn bullheaded someTimes
but it is better late then never to realize these things

all i want is you
danny acosta

all i want is you

call me baby


PPEEEEAAACCCEEE
Sunday, July 8th, 2007
1:07 pm
Hunger Pains
Now that you're here, you realize how much you wanted this stability. After all, you can be as adventurous and daring as you want -- as long as you know there's a strong and steady base for you back at home

You love to be daring as much as the next person, so why not kick things up a notch today? Fuel the excitement that is growing in one of your newer relationships by pushing the envelope ever so slightly today. Go the extra step of making your desires not only known but also irresistible! You will find your partner to be ready, willing and able to fulfill all your wishes. But beware that when you dare them, they have every right to double-dog-dare you right back!

so danny and i keep playing phone tag he'll message me early in the A.m and usually i am awake and ready but the last two night s ive just been so faded that i've passed out super early only to awake later and see the missed transactions on my mobile
im so damn hungry right now i need coffee we are supposed to be going somewhere to eat
my brother fuckin janked the last of my sac and smoked it little bitch i got a hit but it was still my weed

i want money lots and lots of money

danny my friend
tonite its me and you

peace
Saturday, July 7th, 2007
3:48 pm
Dear britt,
Here is your horoscope
for Saturday, July 7:

Pushing your boundaries can be uncomfortable, but in this case it's beneficial. Once you go as far as you can, take your time getting settled and comfortable. Before you know it, you'll have the itch to move again. Disagreeing with a boss or another authority figure is not necessarily a bad thing. After all, having opposing ideas is often a necessary ingredient of a rewarding conversation. If you express your remarks with tact and respect, then they won't be taken as attacks. All that matters to them is the delivery. The fact that you disagree with someone can be a delight -- and an invitation to explain ideas and exchange a little bit more about who you are.

it is so hot
and its 07/07/07


are you feeling lucky?
Sunday, July 1st, 2007
7:34 pm
You gave it your all, but it won't work out the way you wanted it to. Take heart, though -- something wonderful is about to happen. Once it does, you'll look back and be happy this didn't shake out as planned.You can channel your ambition in some interesting ways today. It doesn't always have to be about striving to be the best, the fastest, the smartest or the richest person around. Today, how about setting your sights instead on being the nicest, the most thoughtful, the most honest or the most dependable person around? Reaching any of those goals will enrich you just as much as reaching the typical ones will -- if not more so. Reach out beyond your own needs, and you'll gain more

Damn man the masquitos here in texas are eating me up
i have about 30+ masquito bites combine all over my legs
for some reason it is always sumyhing weird with bugs
last year it was a flea epidemic

i went to san antonio today it rained alot
visitedwitha guy named martin
i got some release from this and also learned something as well

thank you sir
th e family theme has defineately taken full boar
the sun us un cancer so it is only natural but damn is it different having to deal with this side of it agin

i feel good right now though drank sum beers and poked smot
thw weather is suble overcast with showers in the distance
my dad is cutting the grass he has let it go for so long i am glad not to be doing it

there is still no hot water and i want the damn cable in my room hooked up

time for another beer

Danny acosta how are you?

the guy at the liqour store was hot
damn listen to me
haha

peace

Current Mood: smoke pot drink beer itch bite
Wednesday, June 27th, 2007
11:03 pm
humid in homesick
so i made it to texas its hot raining and humid i miss san diego i miss the chronic and strangely but not so much i really miss you you comfort me is that suck?

not so much but i still would like to be healed from this whole situation

i woke up this morning had gotten my period had awful cramps shit four times puked 3 times and at one oint was shitting and puking at the same time

wtf is up with that?

im gonna get a tattoo and my drivers license a car and i want to lose 40 lbs motherfuckers the next time you see me if ever you wont recognize me which is what im going for

my nephew is so fucking cute i just want to hold him all the time its good to see my dad too and my other little brother all i can do rite now is think positive and know and accept that this is right for now and that it will work out

so all ya'll out there in SD CA smoke sum chronic fr me

peace

Current Mood: cramps
Tuesday, May 29th, 2007
5:31 pm
im so tired
worked the AM shift my alarm went of at 6 30 and brians at 5 45 and i was awaken by my mother banging on my door at 3 30

i am getting over sickness it has improved but i choose to continually abuse my lungs and smoke the chronic and the nasty cigarettes
i've smoked so much and yet was sso sick how can i do this

easy i guess put it to my mouth and suck
haha

great

had a fine memorial day bbq at mission bay on sun
i need to shower my hair is out of control
brian is paking up his stufff

i dont know if i want to stay here or not
i think its just too much so i will get that all figured out
work was fine everyone has been infected with this sore throat

um i could pass out right now

danny the thought of you makes me feel like a kid
feel my psychic message
geezus

full moon on thursday as well as a blue moon sencond full moon in a calendar month
i remember the last blue moon i was having sex on a mountain

do you remember who you are?

i want to consume liqour well more like beer but i dont want the calories
maybe my guy will call me and then that is taken care of

huh tuesday mardi

ok im gona read
Wednesday, May 23rd, 2007
8:34 pm
i feel bleh boring nothing is going on right now
maybe i should be greatful
yesterday i woke up sick and while at work i got my period great and i had nothing to put there so i just bled on myself
fabulous
i met this cute guy friday he is so damn cute i cant stop thinking about him but he is leaving sd for two months tomorrow so i guess it doesnt matter right now anyways
i want a boyfriend ive enjoyed this single shit for now but im starting to feel lonely and empty
god how pethedic?

atmost im working so thatkeeps me occupied plus an inflow of cash money so that is good
im just sick of guys who are fucking scum bags
im a nice girl i want a nice guy

where are all the good men at

not here i know
geez this is what its come to huh

i know i know it will get better
where are all my friends?

i feel like i had more friends before and now i feel i dont really talk to anyone
i want to have fun

god damn danny acosta you're fucking hot
so fucking hot
{he is the cute guy i met friday}
do you even know what you do to me im sure you have no idea

god

so yeah sickness sucks periods are ok atleast im not pregnant
break ups suck
no weed sucks

what else sucks?
well i dont know nothing else is really too bad now

just wish i had someone to cuddle with and laugh with and tell me that im beautiful
not that i want to want that tho

god but i do the feminsist man hating part of me is fighting with the i just want a man to love me and hold me part of me

fuck you fuck you too

i miss my ex

its pethedic i know but i do i really do he's a great guy and i miss being with him god please help me get over this

he is moving out soon that will be a hard thing to watch i dont know if i can be here because then i know its final

fuck
my head hurts i want weed
and i want to be held

maybe im 2 maybe im 90

i dont know
what the deal is
Thursday, April 19th, 2007
4:42 pm
SPEEDWAY
And when you slam
Down the hammer
Can you see it in your heart ?
All of the rumours
Keeping me grounded
I never said, I never said that they were
Completely unfounded

So when you slam
Down the hammer
Can you see it in your heart ?
Can you delve so low ?
And when you're standing
On my fingers
Can you see it in your heart ?
And when you try
To break my spirit
It won't work
Because there's nothing left to break
Anymore
All of the rumours
Keeping me grounded
I never said, I never said that they were
Completely unfounded



You won't sleep
Until the earth that wants me
Finally has me
Oh you've done it now
You won't rest
Until the hearse that becomes me
Finally takes me
Oh you've done it now
And you won't smile
Until my loving mouth
Is shut good and proper
FOREVER


All of the rumours
Keeping me grounded
I never said, I never said that they were
Completely unfounded
And all those lies
Written lies, twisted lies
Well, they weren't lies
They weren't lies
They weren't lies


I never said
I never said
I could have mentioned your name
I could have dragged you in
Guilt by implication
By association
I've always been true to you
In my own strange way
I've always been true to you
In my own sick way
I'll always stay true to you



420 tomorrow

Current Mood: stoned
Thursday, April 5th, 2007
11:50 pm
Cosmic Calendar
Today:
April 05, 2007



Daily Cosmic Calendar

There's no reason to continue a slide into the abyss that may have begun with yesterday's cosmic fireworks or even earlier in the week around the time of the full Moon that was compounded by other planetary shenanigans. Every so often -- during any calendar year -- you hit a rough patch and that's what is going on this week. Right now it is important to stay centered and clear on the communication front as giant Jupiter makes a station at 20 degrees of Sagittarius (6:24PM PDT) and begins a four-month retrograde cycle (lasting until August 6). All Jupiter themes -- expansion of consciousness, philosophy and religion, long-distance journeys, education and publishing, athletics, the power of positive thinking, good fortune and worldly success, enthusiasm and euphoria, speculation and gambling, arrogance and pride -- are emphasized now and during the next couple of days. It's important to realize that planets moving into reverse are not suddenly 'bad' or negative in influence. This is a normal and natural part of the solar systemic dance that connects Earth to the other planets in the solar system and, particularly the Sun itself. Any planet moving retrograde is stressing its 'inner meaning' and accentuating its psychological and spiritual components more than its exterior properties. Therefore, it is very helpful to do more soul searching, reflection and meditation in order to discover your own higher truth and purpose for living. Giving you more ammunition in this direction are a Mercury-Neptune 30-degree link (2:38AM PDT) and Sun-Uranus contra-parallel (6:02AM PDT). Inspirations can pack a wallop and your literary abilities receive a positive jolt as well during a Moon-Mercury harmonious trine (6:44PM PDT). Romance looks dicey at best this evening as the Moon in Scorpio opposes Venus in Taurus (7:56PM PDT) -- a polarity that begins a void lunar cycle lasting until 9:58AM PDT tomorrow. Finish old business during the evening hours and delay new ventures into the Moon enters Sagittarius after 9:58AM PDT tomorrow.
11:00 pm
I just finished a painting for my mother.
It looks awsome
I just spent the last 4 days with my artist friend so i was able to find inspiration.
Shit is intense as usual.
My friend told me in order to be a master painter you have to do atleast 300.I have a while to go but alot of fucking time so its all good.
There is tension between brian and i right now and it makes me uncomfortable.
I had my friend come by on monday so i could do his hair on his way over here he lost his wallet with 300 bucks in it on the bus.
He said he got rat fucked
So anyways I knew the time in which i would be finished doing his hair would run into the time of when brian gets home.
So i was anticipating it
So brian comes home
And my friend was like oh wat's up how are you.
Brian goes out to run errods at this point im laughing and cringing at the same time to myself
So brian is gone for about an hour
So he comes back and he says
"brittny can i talk to you?"
me-"sure"
we step into the bedroom and in a low but stern and pissed off voice
"why is he here"?
me-":because im doing his hair"
"we talked about this"
"how would you feel it if it was me doing this to you "?
me-"im doing his hair"
"you just dont get it do you?"
me"im like what the fuck
"well im going to the store,he better be gone by the time i get back"
Me-"ok well we are planning on going"
"good"

So we were gone by the time brian got back and i ended up staying out until today and this went down monday.

Brian i am sorry but he wanted his hair done and all the shit is here at my house.So it was easier for me if he came to see me and im not gona turn down a client for such a stupid reason.I can inderstand if he walked in on us fucking but my friend had bleach on his head.My poor friend he has sensitive skin and the bleach fucked his scalp up.It didnt get al light as we wanted but he couldnt take it and the peroxcide i was using was ment for under a dryer which duh i dont have.Oh well trial and error and he gets it for free so what do you want.
And duh hello mcfly i should have just done a strand test to see how his hair would react.Sorry true,i'll totally fix it for you tho he said it was cool tho it is different so that is something and the haircut is damn cute.Oh fuck

God but thats just my own shit
Im dealing with other shit too
my mother and her friend
my father

and then all the important things in my life too

but it felt great to paint
Fuck i love it

so now i atleast have an idea 300
Ive done about 10 give or take ive drawn alot of stuff but i just need to start translating into paint

My friend uses oil paints but i have not a too good a idea how that shit works so i'll stick to what i know right now

Fuck man life is so weird

God please send your healing and kind thoughts for everyone involved and i'll put mine out there too

Damn
Im gona smoke some hash now


Love peace and harmony

Oh and now my mother wants to come by
Its fucking hard when you share a space with someone totally opposite from you
who still sleeps in your bed at this point because he hasnt moved out yet

Its cool

hash hash hash

Current Mood: blah
10:56 pm
African Herbsman
5. African Herbsman [R. Havens]

All twinklin' lee
Can't see the right rose when the streams abate
The old slave men might grind slow
But it grinds fine, yeah

African herbsman, why linger on?
Just concentrate, 'cause heaven lives on
Greet-I-eth slave men will look with a scorn
With a transplanted heart (yes, how quick they had to part)
(... how quick they had to part)

The remembrance of today
Is the sad feelin' of tomorrow
(... how quick ...) Oh (... part), oh yeah

African herbsman, seize your time
I'm takin' illusion on the edge of my mind
I'm takin' losers down thru my life
Down thru my life, yeah (yes, how quick they had to part)
(... how quick they had to part)

Dideh part, yes, they part
In remembrance of today
(... how quick they had to part)

African herbsman, why linger on?
Just concentrate, 'cause your heaven lives on
Greet-I-eth slave men will look with a scorn
With a transplanted heart, yes, how (... quick they have to part)
(... how quick they have to part)

In remembrance of today
Brings sad feelings of tomorrow
(Yes, how quick they have to ...) Lead me on, oh, Lord, I pray to you

(African herbsman) (African herbsman)
African, African herbsman ...

Current Mood: awake
Monday, March 26th, 2007
4:25 pm
Ubiquitous Mr Lovegrove
I thought that you knew it all
Well you've seen it ten times before.
I thought that you had it down
With both your feet on the ground.
I love slow ... slow but deep.
Feigned affections wash over me.
Dream on my dear
And renounce temporal obligations.
Dream on my dear
It's a sleep from which you may not awaken.

You build me up then you knock me down.
You play the fool while I play the clown.
We keep time to the beat of an old slave drum.
You raise my hopes then you raise the odds
You tell me that I dream too much
Now I'm serving time in disillusionment.

I don't believe you anymore ... I don't believe you.

I thought that I knew it all
I'd seen all the signs before.
I thought that you were the one
In darkness my heart was won.

You build me up then you knock me down.
You play the fool while I play the clown.
We keep time to the beat of an old slave drum.
You raise my hopes then you raise the odds
You tell me that I dream too much
Now I'm serving time in a domestic graveyard.

I don't believe you anymore ... I don't believe you.

Never let it be said I was untrue
I never found a home inside of you.
Never let it be said I was untrue
I gave you all my time

Current Mood: okay
Thursday, March 15th, 2007
2:17 pm
so my boyfriend broke up with me.
This is somewhat upsetting though i could feel in my gut that it was coming.
It makes me sad.We had been together for almost 7 years.
My father says it's the 7 year itch.
My ex told me that it wasnt me he just wants his freedom.OK
So now it is all up to me my life what do I want?
That is what im still trying to figure out.
People pull me in all different directions i try to stay centered and grounded but im still working on that.
The one person who i could hope to rely on my mother needs me more then i need her right now and that is overwhelming
I have faith that everything will work out
Im not really worried,but the flame under my ass has truely been light.Ouch
I could've married the kid had his babies
but he doesnt want that right now and i can understand.
Both so young there is just a great calling for something more then this
in a sense i feel relieved atleast it's out in the open and now we can both move on from this
We've been through alot of shit together good time and things that don't even seem real but they did happen.
The thing i guess that makes me really sad is that i will miss him
The decission was as mutual as it could have been
but i was still upset when he first broke the news
It's a hard pill to swallow
So now its me.Wow
im still in shock
just trying to stay calm and clear minded
the whole world is in front of me now
So that's empowering
2:10 pm
Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.
You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes.
And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad.
You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.




You Are Modernism



You tend to be oriented toward the future and technology.

You like art that signals how the world might change in radical ways.

As far as art goes, everything in the past is obsolete - and it's time to carve a new path.

You prefer art that doesn't follow any rules - even if the art doesn't make much sense.

2:07 pm
You Are 60% Burned Out

You're fairly burned out, and it shows.
You probably have been feeling a little rundown and irritable lately.
If you can, drop a few of your minor responsibilities and focus on what's really important.
You have too much on your plate, and it's catching up with you.
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